Hate note.

I want to witnesses you being dead from inside
Nobody to hold onto but just success…
The chase people did for you
And how you ran to escape
Should be the last thing you regret

I really will the earth and destiny
To make you realize
How important and inaccessible human connections are
And how helpless it feels to not have anyone
to celebrate or to share the happy & sad moments with

I really will to see you cry for someone's presence
like you made people do for you…
I really hope to not see you bloom and be colourful
But dry and dark
Too dead from inside to even see the spark

I dont want to see you die
But see you dead (from inside)
Dont want to see you breathless
But hopeless
Dont want to see you fly
But baseless
Dont want to see you cry
But voiceless
Dont want you see you with closed eyes
But vision less
Dont want to see you raw
But shield less

I need no connections with you anymore
But the connections we had
Is the shit you can't clean for the rest of your life
It's not about getting hurt
It's about breaking down
Scattered and shattered into pieces

I surely would hold me up
Once you drown
I would breathe in relief
Once you suffocate
I would heal
Once you bleed
I would rearrange my pieces
Once you burst

(I have spent 4 new years hoping the best for you
Since 2020 till 2024 i wished the best for you
I loved my extreme and gave you all my heart and soul
And now the vice-versa begins
Just how loyal and constant i was into loving you
Is how great i would be at hating you
Idk if i have unloved you
Probably yes months back but now its the different zone
Congratulations to ur efforts into landing me here
Lets lead this way as per my convenience for the first time may be)

Padmaja Mazumder